NYC, BE WITH ME

Anonymous asked: you think youre the biggest kardashian fan, but babe, I am the number 1 fan, and your little kardashian sanctuary means nothing

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it’s funny how one thing can happen and change your life forever. no matter how much you feel good, you’ll never be the same person again. you’ll smile, but a different smile, it’s not the same. you’re okay but it’s always in the back of your head, things would be better, things would get better. so many things still effect me and I don’t even realize until I just stop and think. something now is always wrong and there’s always something to worry about, nothing is ever good enough. my parents separation has changed everything and will still effect me for a long time. sometimes I think my head still hasn’t been wrapped around it all. nothing makes sense when you search for answers

Anonymous asked: whats your reason's for wanting to meet the kardashians ?

Everyone adores someone, or is inspired by someone. I love the Kardashians and would love to meet them because I’ve adored them for so long, for my own reasons.

I always wonder what happens when you die. What if heaven and after life doesn’t even happen? They speak of this pretty world with clouds and stars that we venture off too after leaving this cold, dark world, but we don’t know it exists, do we? I think we like thinking that it exists because it comforts us, and makes death less scary, less confronting, and less alone. No one wants to die alone, and rot till we become absolutely nothing. Being nothing seems impossible, but we’ve never been it, so how do we know? The mystery of what happens after we vanish I think is what scares us most. We always like to know what comes next, but with this, we don’t know, and never will know, because no one can come back and prepare us for what’s on the other side. Do some of us leave completely, or do others still live discreetly and leave pieces behind? Death is harsh. Death is unclean. We live our lives to it’s absolute potential, and then depart, leaving a scar on the world, so everyone knows that once you were here. So when everyone leaves, when everyone dies, the world just becomes a piece of scarred tissue. Everyone leaves something behind. Photos, videos, words, memories, is the only life left from those that cease from the world. The rest leaves us, and never comes back. I think that’s why it’s so hard to let go, because for the first time there’s nothing to clench onto. You feel unsafe, you feel uncomfortable. That is why death is scary. You don’t know whats coming next, you don’t even know if there is next. Everything just becomes this big mystery and you soon find yourself just wondering everyday, when everything will make sense, when questions will be answered. And until then, you just wait, and prepare yourself for when it does happen to you. I don’t believe in death. Physically, yes it does happen, but if you do good things to the world and do good things to people, and love, and give, and accept yours and others mistakes, you will live on forever. People won’t stop speaking about you, they won’t stop thinking about you. You will live on forever.